Ahmedabad, Gujarat, India
I'm not sure where to begin because there's been a lot. When I landed in India, I took 2 days to reflect on the past 5-6 months away. I needed that time to just "be". I wrote a lot during that time, filling my journal with some of the most valuable feelings I have felt thus far. The various themes of my time away (impermanence, rivers, power shifting, rediscovery, eternity, souls, beauty, circumstances, writing, being lost, seeking, eternity, "selfish" and "selfless") held a heavy weight on the internal layers I slowly peeled through.
It's been exactly 20 days since I've arrived and there aren't enough words to describe the amount of transformation I've felt from within as well as from the people around me. As always, I feel as though I have touched home. India has always been my second home and although I was born and raised in the States, I've always felt a deeper connection here.
It feels like I properly live here or have lived here before. It seems normal, like I've been here for months or years. I'm working with an organization here, getting as immersed as I can while working on Aahana as well. In the past, it has been difficult to adjust quickly. I've long decided to let things slowly take their own course. I'm doing as much as I can and just let things go as they should.
I've felt and seen clarity in my decisions to pursue self employment upon returning home. It feels good. However, during my time here I've let go of my plans and while I am still preparing, I am completely immersed here. Each moment that I'm by myself, working on these different projects, imploring, or having an incredibly mesmerizing and beautiful conversation with someone, I feel engulfed. Engulfed by the energy that I feel in these spaces I have been welcomed into. Engulfed by this energy that I know will stay with me, long after I've left this place.
That's all for now. I'll write again soon.